Alexander James Collins born May 6, 2019 at 3:49pm weighing 7lbs. 6 oz 19.5 inches long. Welcome to the world, we have been praying for you for a LONG LONG time.
Your entrance in to this world had been miraculous. I didn't know I could love as much as I do. You are the most wonderful baby. From the moment you were born I have a different sense of life. There is a comfort like no other. You have been the most outstanding baby, eating, sleeping, burping, pooping, snuggling... press repeat. From the moment you were born there weren't any tears, it is rare to hear you cry, your strength is already admirable.
You are the most beautiful baby I have ever laid my eyes on. You are loved beyond measure and you have made our family a true complete unit. We have all been waiting for you for a long time and the journey wasn't easy. The harder you work for something the better the pay off and WOW is that true in your case. I love you beyond words and I've only seen your face for 45 days. The fastest 45 days of my life. Every moment your demeanor amazes us. You have such a kind presence, a happy disposition, and yes you are starting to smile and coo and you have us all wrapped around your finger. Well you actually have an iron clad grip around ours.
I have prayed for you, and wished for you on every birthday, every star I can remember, and I really can't believe you are here and you are mine. This journey has been full of heart breaks, and ups and downs and now you have made us feel at peace. Everything was worth it the day we found out we were pregnant with you, September 11, 2018. Then on May 6, 2019 life would never be the same in the absolute BEST way ever. I really don't have words to describe this feeling, I am truly at a loss for words.
Your beautiful name, Alexander James, is after two men who I know would have loved you more than words. They would want the world for you and I'm sure would have had expectations that are higher than the top of the Chrysler building. I can only imagine the pride your heavenly Grandfathers would have had holding you and how you would have melted their hearts. I thank you for that gift even though it didn't physically happen, I can feel that it did, and I know they are a part of you and protecting you from above. They will always be in your life and I hope your name is a daily reminder of that. The closest moment of that vision was when your Uncle Eric held you, I thought my heart was going to explode, I can't wait to see the relationship you have with him, I think like ours you will change his life forever in the best way.
There was so much love in the hospital when you were born, it was surreal. It was like there was a forcefield of love around us. Daddy and I, your Grandma, your sisters, Aunts, Uncles, Cousins, flowers from your Godfather Chad, we were surrounded with LOVE. Grandma got emotional in the hospital sharing that it would have been one of the greatest days of your Grandpas life to have met you, but I know that he helped to make this happen. You are the greatest gift we could have been given. Thank you for giving Grandma and I that time together to share, you were the reason, the blessing, the miracle.
Holding you for the first time felt so right, it was so natural, so simple, so peaceful, and so at home. You are home, home in our hearts, our lives, home forever AJ. We love you so much. Your sisters, Charli and Danica, absolutely adore you. Danica has been praying for you since she could talk and her prayers were answered. Charli asked me one day, " Mom if I tell you my wishes will they not come true? I told her if she wants to tell her wish she can, it is up to her, and she let me know she was wishing for you. In the middle of Disney World when she was 5 years old, Charli wished on a magical star for you, and her wish came true. I don't know if anything is more beautiful. Being with all of you is truly the most magical place on earth. My little 3 ponnies, 2 tuna fish and a sausage sandwich.
When Daddy first saw you I know his heart melted, I know his life became complete. I know Daddy loves your sisters and never said he needed to have a boy, but I know he needed you. This miracle to complete the dynamic of our family. He needed one more baby to love. Lucky number 3 While in the hospital Daddy found out that some other wrestlers had sons the same day as you, and Daddy said, " AJ will kick their ass," I had to remind Daddy you were only hours old. It was awesome. Oh and something else awesome, you and Daddy were given a shout out all the way from a UFC fight in Brazil from Clay Guida, you are already famous!
This first 6 weeks of your life have been full of excitement. We spent the first 3 days in the hospital, then we came home and you met Reilly; who didn't miss a beat falling in love and protecting you. From there we saw Dr. Mike and then a week later Dr. Charles. Your latest weigh in at 2 weeks old was 8lbs 10 oz. You are growing by the second! Our first outing for dinner was the same for the girls, at the German Place we like to call Moosey. You have hit up target ( ask Daddy to tell you that funny story in the parking lot), TJ Maxx, Costco, 2 date nights with Mom and Da, Rokbonki, and you had two nights alone with Grandma. You have gone on garage sale trips, looked at couches, and so much more all in this short time. Did I mention the racetrack? I mean we just haven't missed a beat, lets not forget all the new friends you have met and made, and ALL the gifts you have received. It has been quite a time already and the summer is jsut getting started. We are all so excited for the journey ahead. Oh and Daddy has only managed to get squirted on a handful of times, me just once.... thats if you aren't counting the bath tub. You love your baths, I am not sure there is much you don't love. I am hoping you continue this perfectly pleasant demaeanor, you stay healthy and strong, and continue to grow and follow your path. Always know you are safe with us and we will always be there for you no matter what, we are your biggest fans.
Life is so much better with you in it, for all of us. We love you more than words AJ and we can finally say, this is our son, our family is complete.
